Awhile ago I started my journey in the Golden Section Fellowship. I will use this space to post some thoughts about the practice and challenges I encounter along the way.
I also joined the discussion forum created by one of the fellow GSF traveller. These posts may be a duplicate of my posts there.
Meditation has been the most challenging practice for me so far. It is not that it is difficult, I am used to sitting quietly, thinking and pondering things in my head. I used to scare people by my sitting still and just looking at the wall in front of me, thinking. People would come to me asking what’s wrong and I’d say, “Nothing, I’m just thinking.” :)
But this habit was playing against me, I guess, since I stalled at preparation for meditation part. It seemed unnecessary because I’m already used to sitting quietly and being relaxed thanks to yoga practices in the past. And I would get impatient, wanting to start thinking right away.But after comparing the quality of my meditation with and without the prep, I have to admit it is necessary.
So, I decided to devised a little cheat way around my reluctance to do the prep work and use a prayer during the time of breathing. But since I’m not a religious person and was never able to embrace any faith (not for the lack of trying, let me assure you), I had no prayer I could meaningfully use. Therefore, I thought I’d make one myself. Here it is:
By enlightenment of Air,
By intention of Fire,
By wisdom of Water,
By Earth manifest,
By Spirit Below,
By Spirit Above,
By Spirit Within,
I pray to be blessed.
And now I use it for my four fold breathing. The whole prayer takes 30 seconds by the clock since it has 8 lines total and I use lines instead of counting one, two, three, etc. Repeating the whole verse 10 times takes exactly 5 minutes,I can use my fingers to count, not look at the clock, and not worry if the time is correct.
I use it to count the shuffle times with the oracle too, saying the last line when I cut the deck.
I also use this prayer when I know I’m going to face a challenging situation. I just say it in my head and change the last line to “Protected and blessed” to make it an affirmation.